Hate

could really do with a little rejection. things have been going so f'n swimmingly, i need Another reminder i'm just another piece of shit. (fu, world.)

not mad.

all set.

walking in the snow :)

the iron maiden? no, thanks, i'll just walk home. (sorry that hurts you.)

my proudest christmas ever :)

waiting for Krampus...

christmas upon us, feeling happy i don't think i'll disappoint the most important people (not quite indigent this year). 1st time in a zillion years... merry christmas to all!

SO very close to finished...

fuck. elephant shoes :(

noxious back-end stuff is making me lose all faith in myself :( considering an ass-amputation. or nose. either one would serve...

damn, this asshole stinks! :(

the dancing cop was on thayer st today

white :-D

family guy empire strikes back :)

hail Eris!

Lost, with creamed rice

christmas shopping

cruel, indifferent, or strange kindness? (i'd like to know.)

awesome loot arrived :) can't examine, yet, tho, 'til mom comes home...

eat peanut butter captain crunch, and intending to stink all night. the crapper's all prepared with reading material and ashtray.

work was good, i think

reading and rolling with birthday loot. big day tomorrow- anxious for new work

just made the worst snack ever. eww

i'm not hurrying toward, i'm hurrying away from. and i'm somehow doing even that backwards

spending a lot of time unshowered, unshaven, in my pajamas.

i'll always know what i couldn't live up to

noticed, from outside: a bedroom window, the Top window, open two inches. no memory of ever opening it. does this explain the climate control issues in this room, all year? (i've never even bothered to investigate.) aargh. am i a moron or what?

woke up with a Beatles song in my head

just picked up another 40 hours per week for the next 2 months :D

fuck you, santa

becoming Better can be a bitch

i've become a tv addict.

serving no purpose: regretting love lost, remembrance of useless failure, false agony

no matter how much i fuck up, i can't really fuck up worse :-)

to sleep would be good...

i have issues

done

how many monkeys does it take to screw in a drawer

quoth Scott Gardner: "sweet liquor- it eases the pain"

done with 2 1/2 days of nonstop work. home. total silence, not even a meow.

a few hour of sleep is good between work. a big empty agenda.

a long day at work. good.

Harlow's totally into the movie...

no idea what's going on or what's happened. i guess that's good...

way too sober for reality. not drunk enough. brain explosion...

it's almost impossible to read about my disease online: 2 completely unrelated diseases share the EXACT SAME name :(

please, culture gods, rename the disease i have! i've NO interest in ANY type 2 diabetes Anything. why curse me with other disease having [identical] name?

i got carded

out for a drink. :/

spazzing the fuck out. wahoo

both harlow and loki attacking my feet :) drunkening progresses at a more rapid rate, now mom's come and gone :) shawn and juliette finally kissed :) SUM :(

punch buggy black

punch buggy, blue!

already gone

where is my damned hair shirt?

i am mindless, a zombie.

Aargh

heavenly- little Harlow curled up, purring, on my shoulders

officially, Cause To Get Totally Drunk And Hopefully Black Out. not the good kind :(

a.k.a. mister popular. :P

waiting is, until fullness

missing

so Loki & Harlow seem extra affectionate. i'm surrogate mommy, i think!

there is No Damned Need for christmas music already!

Matt D. Fonseca's lameness: driving cars http://ping.fm/oMw2C

happy birthday, dad!

Matt D Fonseca Mattman superpower: given a liquor and any random assortment of crap, i can make tollerable drink

preparing for seasonal layoffs, thinking about part time winter work. ideas? let me know if you need any help...

i miss you

Massachusetts Voters Ready To Legalize Marijuana In 2012 | AlterNet http://ping.fm/an3wg

Twinkie diet helps nutrition professor lose 27 pounds - CNN.com http://bit.ly/diYmqE

might makes right. ["might"= popular orthodoxy, "right"= the Is]

what "time" is it? sunday... football, vodka & wine, nothing, the couch... 130 lbs of not-quite-Hate...

Off To Work, Part 2

smiling @ my productive lady :D

once again, i called the election results Perfectly. the fucking lizards won 100% AGAIN

What the fuck has Obama done so far? http://ping.fm/u7QY7

i voted Eris for master/god of the universe, Loki for president kitty (don't tell Angela!), |3.14| for pi, and Makemake for last planet.

a fun Halloween :) way too short, but all good

kitties

loving the colors

i heard a rumor that if California legalizes certain plants, the entire population there will become murderous, junkie pedophiles. i expect it's true.

always conflicted about when to type "my" and when to type "i'm". "our" vs. "we're" fucks me up, too. never "your" vs. "you're", tho.

will you make it with another long lost love. - Listen here http://ping.fm/tfbEx

just switched to vodka and soda :) things are good, either way

watching _Predator_ for the first time. are there TWO governors in this movie? (yeah, i guess i jumped a shark once)

where the hells are my keys?

homeless for the day :(

living the Hate.

Please put this on your status if you know or love someone who is gay. My wish is that people will understand that being gay is not a disease nor a choice - people who are gay are not looking for a cure but ACCEPTANCE and EQUAL RIGHTS... 93% won't copy and paste this. Will you make it your... status for at least one hour? .... Promote LOVE & Acceptance! NOT hate! God says we are all equal, and to love everyone!

Please put this on your status if you know or love someone who is gay. My wish is that people will understand that being gay is not a disease nor a choice - people who are gay are not looking for a cure but ACCEPTANCE and EQUAL RIGHTS... 93% won't copy and paste this. Will you make it your... status for at least one hour? .... Promote LOVE & Acceptance! NOT hate! God says we are all equal, and to love everyone!
*not so sure about that "god" bit- the Yahweh Jehovah i read of (q.v. the Bible) seemed pretty damned racist and discriminatory. of course, any Good god would agree! (just like any Good human.)

happy errands all day. CC&Sierra Mist, now. :)

errands, DRIVING a car, are SO much easier :)

Map of Online Communities, 2010
http://ping.fm/vXR7Z

does anyone have a kitten who needs a home?

1st shift at new job went well. 2 jobs now. just need lots of hours at each.

this no longer feels like mission impossible

one of the busiest days ever. aargh.